i was reading the blog of an old friend of mine who cheated on her boyfriend. he forgave her. her depiction of her actions/attitude after her infidelity disgusted me. she was arrogant and nonchalant about the entire ordeal. she disgusted me.

and then i realized she reminded me a whole lot about myself. goddamn.

+when they write biographies about you, i want them to write about me, too.

sometimes, i hate myself so much, i wanna rip my skin off and burn it.

or somehow damage it severely.

just stfu.

i think asian people are the nicest most considerate people in the world.

how do i know this?

they package plastic spoons with their jello.

yes, duran durna.

show me off like thickened ejaculate.

stop fawning--feigning.

is that you you spell it?

ok, ok i'll start blogging soon. give me topics to blog about, jorge. or anyone else.

i cant stop listening to duran durna's come undone.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

seck-say.

ou can expect to die on:

March 29, 2055
at the age of 68 years old.


On that date you will most likely die from:

Cancer (17%)
Alien Abduction (11%)
Heart Attack (11%)
Contagious Disease (9%)
Homicide (9%)
Third Degree Burns (6%)
Horrible Accident (6%)
Loneliness (5%)


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36% slutty
which is actually less than the average, 46%.


Based on the 9,269,693 test takers so far:

you're sluttier than 29% of the world.
you're cleaner than 70% of the world.


FACT
31 women agreed with you, and chose "Immanuel Kant" as the best sex option of all time.
FACT
So far, the most popular place to lick lubricated men is below the right nipple.
THE NUMBER ONE THING THE AVERAGE WOMAN DISLIKES ABOUT HER OWN LOOKS
--her face--

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MENTOR
( Submissive Extroverted Abstract Thinker )


You are a MENTOR (SEAT). Some would call you the most powerful and influential of all people. Those people are wrong.

The reality is that you DON'T really WANT to impose personal views or beliefs on others. Yet you are extroverted and intelligent, and you like to get involved. So you help others with the pursuit of knowledge.

You're the reason that people say teachers are also students. You are as much a learner as a master, and this satisfies you.

You won't die a lonely death, but towards the end you'll grow introspective, wondering if your life meant anything. This will last for decades, and you'll die after your spouse.

one day, everyone i know and love will leave me.

i know this.

when i read it, i feel like my thoughts are building up in a dam. when the dam bursts, there will be a breakthrough, so until then, i hafta keep filling up the dam. i've always been really close to having my dam burst, but im usually like.... a couple of ideas short. but i know that when it happens...

wtf am i rambling about? i dunno.

i am on meds. i think i was stupid in world lit today, too.

sometimes my dad says things that surprise me. not in a bad way, not in a good way. but sometimes, when he says those things, i can feel myself tear up and choke. i cant make eye contact or else. i dont know why this happens. if its because im angry at him or im angry at me. or if i hate myself or i hate them. or if im sad or happy. its weird.

my right leg hurts. below my ass and it stretches all the way to like behind my knee.

he says some really mean things sometimes, but i think half the time he doesnt realize he's saying them.

i dont hate arlene, either.

i am lonely. eman is at a logic study group (god, i hate logic). i wanna call hanna. but sometimes she gets upset after long periods of time when i dont contact her. which i understand. but im really lonely. oldies are blasting out of my stereo at a very low volume level. i got a job at crabtree and evelyn. they will pay me a lot of money. not a lot. but a lot to me. i will open a savings account and save half of what i earn and put the other half in my checking account.

i think i take everyone for granted. my sister, eman, hanna, my parents.

i have religion hw to do, but no one will tell me what it is.

reading hanna's posts on trip.your.wire makes me feel nostolgic. the other day, she brought up the time we took the wrong godforsaken bus cuz i thot it would circle around just to get out of the heat. last summer. the summer of 2003. my adventures rock out. our adventures. sorry. then i pissed in a bathroom that lacked a door. i could have easily been taken advantage of. damn i feel stupid. i didnt even ask hanna or mel to accompany me.

so, i am going to rant about a particular person--arlene. sometimes i like her, sometimes i dont. most people (the few people in my life whose opinion matters to me) dont like her or are just straight up apathetic towards her. she is this self-righteous elitist who masquerades in piety and humility. it is DISGUSTING. its like this girl has an alter ego. she has this quiet, shy exterior with a self-important interior. most people dont notice it because most people dont even think twice about arlene. you would think she would know this, but NOOOOO.

she thinks people are intimidited by her. yes, she said this herself. on her blog. "am i intimidating?" she was commenting on how people avert their eyes when she looks at them. this is what makes me believe she holds herself high up on a pedestal. who automatically assumes that people are intimidated when the avert their eyes? WHO, DAMMIT? TELL ME! for god's sake, a person could avert their eyes to avoid having to talk to your or maybe you have a booger! WHO KNOWS?! OR MAYBE THEY LOOK AWAY BECAUSE THEY JUST DONT LIKE YOU! but who automatically assumes intimidation? someone full of herself, that's who.

she posted how much norte dame would cost her:

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

Cost of a Notre Dame education:
$3650 family contribution; $2600 student loan; $2300 work-study
...the rest of the $39,350 in grants and scholarships.


Why am I disclosing this financial info? I don't know. I'm great with money? ... (emphasis added)

ok, stupid, so tell me how that shows you're great with money? what does your fucking expected family contribution have to do with how well you handle money??? the fucking expected family contribution is based on you and your parents' income/assets. so where did you construe you were good with money? WHOA ARLENE, sorry my parents earn so much money my EFC is 18,269!! IT MUST MEAN IM JUST SO DAMN HORRIBLE WITH MONEY, EH? god, you're an idiot.

here's some news for you: if you have to try to be smart, you arent smart.

another thing that has been bothering me lately.

--well another time. if you piss me off again, arlene, i'll just post later.

i made latkes yesterday. my family thouroughly enjoyed them.

fuck, i figured out why it pisses me off so much.

it's MEDIUM length. not LONG or SHORT-SHORT. but MEDIUM. ugh ugh.

drasticity

--it rocks my world. TOO BAD IT'S NOT ROCKIN' RIGHT NOW.

NO ONE WILL KNOW OF MY SHORTENED HAIR!

i cut my hair but i shall tell no one, for it's shortness upsets me. deeply, greatly. indeed it does. i cant even stand to look at it i told the lady ONE inch, for chrissake!

i will be keeping my hair up everyday now. until.....

june 1st.

promise.

i really like eman's little sister's blogger.

the waking process

i like it a lot.

ta-da.

i hate writing these little boogers, but i looooove reading them. i like to read them because

--you dont really care, do you?! well, ho, im gunna tell you anyway!

i like to wonder about myself.

you know what's funny? it doesnt matter how stupid and insignificant the subject im writing about may be at the present moment, but i pretty damn sure i'll enjoy reading it later.

goshers. i own you, hos.

''There are a lot of people now who want to jump over the dead body of the old left,'' Lasn recently told a reporter. ''We've decided to stop whining about Nike. Why not make $10 million and use it to run a media-literacy campaign instead? I'm really sick of the whiners.'' blackspot

ok, stupid adbuster bitch. it's what you've been doing for the past 14 years.